Cozy In Love

Gone were the times when you work and plan so you can please... gone were the times when you try not to slip a burp or (goodness) a fart... Gone were the times when you need to always be smart, good looking and proper - me and my Tikboy has already reached that level that we are already cozy and comfortable. Comfortable enough that we no longer ran when we need to let go of a human "need" (hahahahaha!).

They say being cozy can become a routine...or it can be unsexy - I beg to disagree. I still feel that excitement when she looks at me... I still feel that tingle when she kisses my hand. Oh yes, the excitement is still there...

True love is when you are able to laugh after she farts...true love is when you can hug her and still say I love you after you said 'bantot ng kili kili mo!!!!" :)

Feeling mayaman

At Marriot's Newport Coast Villas. The view of the ocean is breathtaking.

Sweet :)

Someday I will have a vacation house here.

Looking good.

Yep. My wife.

LA trip

The oldest house in LA. Restored after the earthquake of 1971.

The oldest restaurant, La Golondrina along Olvera Street in downtown LA.

Kodak Theatre. Where's the red carpet?

Need I say more?

I "Heart" You

We've never really celebrated Valentine's day even when we were in the Philipiines. Katwiran namin, everyday is a love day for us.... and besides, no use of competing with other couples. Mapu-frustrate ka lang kasi lahat puno (ehek!). At the stroke of midnight, Mr and Mrs Tikboy has this to say to each other:

Misis to Tikboy:

"For it was not into my ear you whispered but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul...Happy Valentine's Day Mahal. I love you."


Tikboy to Misis:

"My heart knows no bounderies. My soul yearns for yours. I have fallen and risen, gone astray and found the path again. Now and for all eternity, everything I do will be for you. All of my heart. All of my soul. All that I am. All of my life. Happy valentine's Day Mahal. I love you."

San ka pa???! Parang wedding vows ah, hahahahaha!

Happy Hearts Day!

Looking back then moving forward

Our lives are entwined since the day we realized how much we love each other. From that day on we have ventured into this epic journey of gargantuan proportions that when I try to look back I couldn't believe how much time we have spent together, how much time we spent apart, how much time we invest in each other and the dream that we have. Now, each time I try to back track I couldn't help but cry and smile at the same time. There are times that you ask me how long can I keep up with you, how long can I wait, how long can I hold on... I tell you now and I will keep on telling you - I will be here until the day we make our vows. I will be here until the day our dreams come true. I will be here until the day that you realize that I have always been the one for you.

It took me a while to realize that you are the only one for me. Stupid jerk that I am for letting you go and straying from the path that always led to you. But I am all past that now. It amazes me to think that with just one word all else changed. How I see you, what I feel for you, how I see things around you. We've gone past that stage of impressing each other with the way we look. All I can see now is how we'll look like in our most vulnerable moment without trying to look good. The bare essentials of being comfortable and at ease with one another. That I love. That I cherish. That I look forward to everyday.

I love you. I will not tire of saying it again and again every moment of every day. Because I really do. And I love you because you are you. Plain and simple. Naughty and nice. I just do. I cherish each day that I wake up because of you.

All that I have. All that I am. All of my life. I am yours.

Litrato

Saka na ang kwento!

Yes Mahal..

3 days of quality time with my wife.. I just couldn't get enough! Bitiiiiiiiiin!

:D

After talking to Misis Tikboy this morning I realized why my habits changed when I got here. And it's getting a little bit intense in the last few days. I know why I don't dress up that much, I know why I don't spray cologne that much, I know why I am very comfortable with the way things are.

May asawa na kasi ako. Hindi ko na kailangan pang pumorma.Ang sarap ng feeling! Hindi ko maipaliwanag pero ibang klaseng kaligayahan nararamdaman ko. :D

Pormatiks no more

Ever since I got here in the States I have noticed a lot of changes in my habits. I was thinking of it for over a month and I always forget to post it here. Now that I am online and thought about it once more I grabbed the chance to do it. Here are some of those things:

1. Going out of the house without even bothering to take a bath. Wow, this is really something new. I never did this when I was in the Philippines.
2. Going out to eat, buy stuff at the grocery store in my house clothes (meaning - shorts, t-shirt, flip flops).
3. Leaving the house without spraying cologne/perfume.
4. Getting up from bed, still in my pajamas and hurrying up to buy something at the store.
5. Reading a lot. Pleasure reading at that too.
6. Walking a lot.

Hmmmm.. I know this isn't the complete list. I might update this post soon.

I don't dress up that much anymore which is kind of amusing. I used to dress up a lot when I was still an office worker and a professor. Well, now I am not. I kinda like it. :D

So this is how it feels...

This is me thinking "How can I pull this off?" Gusto ko sana dun kami sa may batuhan kaso ayaw niya. Kailangan ko mag-isip ng mabilis. Hmmmm...

This is the spot. I asked her to sit on the bench but she doesn't want to. Oh well.. So, I made my move.

My wife. Nanghina yata kaya napaupo na. Kung kailan naman hindi ko pinapaupo!

So this is how it feels... I was planning this for a long time. I played it in my head a thousand times. I wanted it to be a surprise. To be perfect. I wanted her to remember it for the rest of her life and then reminisce it by spending the rest of her life with me. The moment it happened I felt like I would cry. I actually did.

Thanks for saying YES Mahal. I love you.

Ay...ay...ayyyyy!!

It happened.

Ganun pala yun. When it comes, you can't say anything.

The moment was priceless. Priceless..

Sa tuwing ire-rewind ko sa isip ko, napapangiti ako. Napapailing. Natatawa.

Sa sobrang pagkabigla napa- "ay, ay, ayyyyy" na lang ako.

I can't believe it. It happened :)

Early Christmas with Tikboy

Celebrated our early Christmas today.... Went to South Coast Plaza... ate at Wolfgang Puck and my Tikboy bought me my christmas gift and more!!!!

Thanks Mahal...

Isang Gabing Malamig

Me: Gaano mo ako kamahal?

Tikboy: Gaano?

Me: Oo...

(nag-isip si Tikboy)

Tikboy: Mas malaki pa sa earth... mas malaki pa sa galaxy!

(natigilan ako....)

Me: You're so sweet!

Ganito ba talaga mag-usap ang mga taong nasa late 30's na? Hahahahaha!

One request

I don't need any presents. No need to buy me stuff for Christmas or my birthday. I just have one request... that you spend the rest of your lifetime with me.

If You're Not the One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

I love being nocturnal

For the past few weeks I've been nocturnal. I thought working nights will be difficult but much to my surprise I am loving it. Attending to the needs of 6 people at night might seem such a huge task but it all boils down to management (and timing too). If they don't call simultaneously it could be a good night. All I have to do is make rounds every hour or so to check on them while they sleep. Normally, they get up every two hours to urinate. But other than that I have all the time in the world - surf the net, do FB, pay my bills online, read, blog - after my usual household chores. No boss bugging you at night. No annoying co-workers. Occasionally, there's a call in the night from the other house checking up if everything's running smoothly during my shift. Easy.

Thing is I am having a hard time sleeping in the day. The most that I get after my shift is a 30 minute nap and then I'm awake the whole day. I tend to sleep when it's dark. So, I get to wait until 5 or 6 in the evening to finally catch up some sleep. Good thing my shift starts at 11:30 in the evening. Misis Tikboy is worried about my sleep patterns. Even 50mg of diphenhydramine couldn't make me sleep in the day. She usually tells me "Tulog na. May pasok ka pa."

Sigh. I miss her. Sana end of the month na.

Johnny Gill - Half Crazy [original w/ lyrics]

Kem- Why Would You Stay

From You... To Me..

I may not know the reason why fate brought us back but I am thankful that I have you in my life. If I may have to live my life again and reconsider all that I have done, I would take back the day I let you go. If I had known that we will always keep coming back to each other, I would have held you close as I possibly could instead of pushing you away.



I love you. Time and again, I will always be willing to wait for you even if it takes my entire lifetime. I would risk everything for you.



In time, when you have that special place in your heart open for me again, I will ask you to marry me.



I am yours. All that I have, all that I am.



All of my life.

The Dalai Lama's Instructions for Life

"Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

Follow the three R's:

- Respect for self.
- Respect for others.
- Responsibility for all your actions.

Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

Spend some time alone everyday.

Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

Be gentle with the earth.

Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon."

— Dalai Lama XIV



"NEVER GIVE UP
No matter what is going on
Never give up
Develop the heart
Too much energy in your country
Is spent developing the mind
Instead of the heart
Be compassionate
Not just to your friends
But to everyone
Be compassionate
Work for peace
In your heart and in the world
Work for peace
And I say again
Never give up
No matter what is going on around you
Never give up"
— Dalai Lama XIV

Teleport

In a span of one week I have been to three different cities in SoCal. Three different cities, three different homes. When I decided to leave SFO I know that I am in for another adventure. I just never thought it would be like this. The first few days were tough. I hadn't set foot in my final destination yet when lightning struck and left me rattled. Good thing Misis Tikboy was with me. I calmed down and rethought my options. She gave me strength. She gave me hope. She is my inspiration. I wanted to be near her. To be with her. But this isn't the right time yet. Sometimes I wish it would be easy like K of C wherein you could just teleport your kingdom wherever you want.

I am taking baby steps. Getting familiar with my surroundings, getting to know people. Soon enough this would feel like an old familiar ground. Not home yet but close to home.

Close to my wife.